It has been so long

I can't even think of where to begin. I guess that that would actually be it.

My life is full of physical pain, but filled to the brim with the emotional and spiritual knowing that all is part of the Lords plan and if given to him, valuable.

I had my beautiful daughter here with me for half of her summer break and it was wonderful. My physical being couldn't do what we use to, but my mind allowed me to find plenty of other ways to enjoy our time together (that, and her being so willing to do anything as long as it was with me). I am so very very lucky to have such a wonderful little girl.

Sadly, I also lost my wonderful puppy and Best Friend. I had to put her to sleep after she had been hit by a car. I was so very blessed to have her. She was who made me try so hard every day to not let my physical problems keep me from getting up. I thank the Lord that he brought her to me and will never ever forget how lucky I was to have her in my life.

I also had an unexpected meeting with my High School Sweethearts parents. Let me start by saying that they live in the D.C. area. 9 years ago, Jessica (My High School Sweetheart) died in a car accident a month before we planned on getting married. Also, important to know that she is not the mother of my daughter (long story). I hadn't spoke to hear parents since she died. They saw me and we had lunch at the Charlston Exit on 90 in Mass. It was great catching up with them and sad all at the same time.

Well, its late and I will hopefully be on again soon.

Oh, and as I have said before. If you happen to read this and want a very entertaining Blog you should find Elizabeth Downing's Site. Always worth the Five Minutes.

When the time comes

Where will you be when the time comes?
Will you be with loved ones, or all alone surrounded by many?
Will those you love know how much you loved them?
Will you have accomplished all the things you wanted?
Will there be any secret you wish nobody would find out discovered?
Do you know where you are going?

When the time comes make sure you left nothing you wanted to do not done, so do them while you can. When the time comes make sure you told all the ones you love that you love them. When the time comes make sure you where open and honest with the ones you love so that there won't be any dark secret that they painfully discover. Most importantly make sure that you try your best to live right by god and for god that you will know that you have been forgiven and know where you will be going when the time comes.

Celebration

I often wonder why we wait for specific events to have a celebration. Why not just throw a party for the simple fact of celebrating that we live? I think I am going to do just that. A party simply to celebrate that we are alive. Any ideas for decorations and food?

A walk in the rain

As the rain falls and covers the earth in a layer of moisture, a walk makes me remember that we all have rainy days. With those days you have an option to seperate yourself from the outside or take a nice walk. I hope you all walk

With in my Realm

As hours become days become weeks become months and then eventually years, I strive to achieve the most from my life. I read as often as I can about anything and everything. I attend church and try to help others in anyway I can. I pray that my physical being becomes what it once was or at least close. I pray that I keep my sanity in the midst of my own frustrations. I also hope that I can be all that I can be for all the people who mean something to me. This is all with in my realm of possibilities.
You must never quit and always strive for being the best you can be. Strive to have the best of the best of everything you want, and mostly strive to be the best that the Lord would want you to be. This is all with in my realm of possibilities.

A Fleeting Moment

Well, I have to say that I enjoyed having somebody to talk to and get to know. Sadly, I can tell she is not the one I see in my future. Great, but just not perfect. Perfect is not that she will have no faults, but perfect that she will be perfect for me. I am tired of the search, yet I haven't really been searching. I wonder if Ms. Rightforme is ever going to be discovered.

A good morning thought and challenge

Have you ever wondered why some can seem to have everything they want go their way and others seem to have everything they try go wrong? Is there really such a thing as luck? Do you have good luck, bad luck, or no luck at all?

I am challenging myself and you to stop, take a deep breath, and give something crazy a shot. Maybe take a chance this weekend on a trip you have thought would be fun but never have tried. Call a few friends and go dancing or sing karaoke. Just do something you have never done. Worst that is going to happen is that it isn't something you would do again, but at least you have finally tried.