Scared or am I a chicken

While on a visit to New Hampshire last week, I met a lovely young lady. From across the Restaurant I saw her and was instantly taken. Now let me make it clear that I find many woman attractive in this world, but very rarely does somebody make my heart skip a bit. I was with my Brother and His wife and made a comment to my brother about it. I never have had issues with meeting very nice women, but for over a year I have not had any that made a spark. I have found some very interesting and enjoyable but really only know them from a computer contact stance. This, now this was different for me. Awhile later my brother and I stepped out for some fresh air (a.k.a. smoke), and out comes the before mentioned woman. My brother simply looked at me and said "On that note I will see you in a little while". I knew he expected me to finally try to talk to her. Nervous at first being that she was with several friends I proceeded to speak to all of them. Quickly it became a conversation for mostly the two of us (careful to not exclude others, but them making the move to make it her and I). So as the night progressed we talked about many many things and I found myself completely in a trance by this woman. Amazingly beautiful, funny, smart, and successful at what she does. We found that we had many common enjoyments (especially the Red Sox's). As the night continued found ourselves just letting go to the evening. I had so much fun (also found myself staring into the eyes of somebody I would really like to get to know better). When the night was coming to a close I got her number and asked If she would like to have dinner that Wednesday. She agreed and I walked she and her friends to the care, as they all were teasing her and calling me Eye Candy (which obviously I took to be very complimentary). I kissed her goodnight- a move I never make when just meeting somebody. I went to my Brothers house and hung out for the remainder of the night unable to stop thinking about her.
The next day we were texting and speaking on the phone numerous times. The connection I was feeling was one that I am unfamiliar with. Enjoyable and scary at the same time. The next day, being Monday, she had work and then called me to ask if I were in my Hotel room and if she could come say hi. Of course, excited by the chance to see her again, I said yes. She came by while on her way to the gym and ended up spending over an hour with me just talking. She had to let me know that her Job was sending her to DC for the rest of the week the next day and would have to reschedule the dinner night. She would be returning Friday night but I was leaving Thursday night to return home for doctors appointments. Understandably canceled I was still excited that we had another chance to see one another before I left.
We have spoken and texted each other every day since and speak on the phone every night. Very few people do I desire talking to on the phone, but it is something I look forward to every night. I can't help but call her beautiful all the time (example: Hey Beautiful, not just telling her she is beautiful. I use it more like a name) and she calls me Sweetie and Sexy. Its funny thought, I am so scared that I am really starting to like her, and worried that it might not be the same. Why? I don't know. The calling me every night and sweet names should make me confident, but I am so scared of getting some how hurt I am feeling like running away. My heart is saying just see what happens and my head keeps saying what the hell are you doing. Going on only two weeks, I am not saying that I am in Love or anything, but I am definitely finding myself unable to stop thinking about her.
Why is it that I feel the urge to jump ship before its even hit an Iceberg and sinking? Why can't I just stop thinking and let what will happen happen? I just need to get out of my own head and way and trust the Lord to show me if this is right or wrong. I need to trust that if she finds herself not interested that she will just be open and honest and tell me.
I will tell you though, she is pretty darn awesome so far. My heart still skips a beat just from her calling and texting me, and when I kissed her and hugged her it felt like time managed to just stop and my heart stopped along with it. I can't wait to have some time to get back up there and finally have a real date night. I have never had such anxiety in meeting somebody and excitement at what may lay ahead. I have for a very long time always viewed my dating experiences as making a new friend. Almost all of the women I have dated are very close friends and I've been the guy to simply show them how a man is to treat a woman (not trying to sound conceded, but most men have forgotten that being a gentleman is what makes a real man). This woman on the other hand makes me think that maybe I am not destined to be alone. I'm not saying that it is her, but at least I see real possibility.

Never Ending

So, I have told the story before of how last year I was struck by a truck and have suffered some severe nerve damage. Now, Workers Comp has decided that because I am only palliative and not curable they are going to just leave me out to dry. New Jersey has the worst WC Laws of any state. They protect the company and allow them to mistreat injured employees. The one thing they didn't count on is that I don't ever quit. I will get better eventually. I will win my case. I will also get back to being the boss one day again soon. My big goal though is to be the extremely physically active man I once was. I have the blessing of being able to savor life and I will not let that go.
This process of recovery has felt never ending and without all my friends, family, and the Lord I can't say that I would be able to stay this strong.
Take a moment and remind those you love how much you love them, then get out there and savor all life has to offer. You never know when it can all be taken from you.

When is it just Dating or a Couple

Have you ever met somebody who at very first glance there was a spark? As you get to talk to them you realize how much you also have in common. What makes the difference between dating and being a Couple? How long do you need to be together before that can be decided (does it even matter how long)? Is the man responsible for making that first leap for more, or does he wait on the woman (Lets face it though ladies, we guys are pretty stupid and mostly are scared of rejection)? How does one know if somebody is truly into them? Is it because they call and text everyday just to talk to you? If they call you sweetie, or sexy, or babe is that a clue?
All these questions and how many of us can actually with out hesitation say they can answer any of them? Please let me know what your thoughts are.

So very Funny

I have this very brilliant woman I follow on her Blog. She writes about pretty much anything but every Wednesday has a "THOUGHT". So far I have never been disappointed with anything she has written, actually always finding it funny and insightful. She will just as easily Speak of Dating topics as she will poke fun at herself. I find it very enjoyable. I will ask her if it will be okay to put her info up, cause it is well worth your time.

The Funny thing is...

How much humor do you find in your day to day life? Do you laugh often, or not often enough? Do you try and find humor in things or what for just the obvious?
I have noticed how many people walk around with an almost scowl like expression on their faces and wonder what could possibly be keeping them from smiling (cause scientifically true that a smile is easier than a frown)? I sit a silently contemplate (well, usually silently) why people or lacking even just a little grin. I have come to the conclusion, with nothing at all to back it up, that most have simply let go of trying to savor and enjoy life and figure they will do that when they retire or the weekend or something. I just can not for the life of me understand why anybody would ever want to spend the majority of their life just pushing through and getting by. Even before health issues, I have always tried to live in the moment, love all, and enjoy everything. I have never stayed with a Job if it became boring simply because of a paycheck. Money means nothing if you are so unhappy you are unable to really enjoy it. Actually, until the accident the continuous search for a job I truly enjoyed always seemed to pan out for the best in regards to greater pay and a better understanding of things I like and dislike in regards to working environment (I know that was a long running on sentence).
Remember to smile everyday. Laugh everyday. Love everyday. Promise that if you do life no matter the situation you are in will improve at least a little.

When do you know, or how do you know?

How many of you have had somebody you wondered if they might be interested in you (weather or not you were) and could just not put your finger on it? Which sex do you think is more obvious of there intent towards somebody they like? How, if at all, would you try to get the answer to the question of their feelings for you? Bold and Brazinly just ask? Or, do you just poke around and hope the answer comes about?

Putting in the time

We all have friends and family who we wish we could see a little more often. Are you willing to wake up an hour early and go to breakfast? Maybe, take a two or three hour drive to see them and the same drive time back, just for a couple hours with them? How about your spiritual relationship? Do you go to church regularly or just on the holidays? Do you converse with him daily or just when you are in need of something? Have you ever just talked to him on a daily basis and thanked him for both the good and the bad? Have you attempted to read to hear his reply to a question you have been wrestling with?
On both topics I recommend really trying to make the time needed to strengthen your relationships. The rewards for those efforts are truly worth it.